the real h e a r t b r e a k e r

please do not say you love me, regardless of what it really meant when the words came out of your mouth. you know how i feel about you and i still cannot believe that you still treat me the way you do. does your girlfriend get you off the same way i did? as good? as long? as nice?....i didn't think so. i know i will never be nothing but a mistress of sorts to you. you say you like this tension, but i don't think understand how much i hate it. as much as i get aroused by these games, i can't bear to think what would come if she found out. still no one ever tells her, no one ever tells any of them. it's as if they all expect us to be together. when you opt out of getting a ride home, no one says a word as you put your arm around instead. and surprisingly, i have still yet to see her face. 

but don't worry. i know some things can never be. just please don't say you love me, regardless of what it really meant when it came out of your mouth because i know i will never be nothing but a mistress of sorts to you.